Great day!

I am so excited!  I ran 5 miles today without stopping.  I felt it was a great accomplishment and a great way to start off the week.  My cardio class tonight was AMAZING!!!  I feel like I really pushed myself. 

Fat

So I have lost around 45 lbs.  Wow!!

Fell off the wagon

Well this weekend has been BAD!!!  I ate total crap all weekend (fri/sat).  Tomorrow I have to jump back on the wagon.  I feel like junk and it's because of the junk I ate.  Where did my will power go?  I think with me being sick I just didn't feel like cooking.  Oh well, tomorrow is another day.  I need to pick myself up and start fresh. 

Still here

I am still here.  I haven't weighed this week and don't plan to until Sunday so I really haven't had a whole lot to say.  Things are going pretty good.  I have decided to add a graham cracker to my paleo plan.  They had that back then right?  LOL.  No, they did not but I need something to curve this bread anxiety and a graham cracker seems to be doing the trick.  I will eventually try to get into something a little more healthy but this is working for now.  I have had sinus issues for two days now and drinking tons of water.  I feel dehydrated even though I am putting down over 100 ounces a day.  Today I am almost done with 96 ounces and its not even 5 so  I will go well over today.  My workouts have been good this week.  I went to 4 evening classes and we went to the park a couple of times.  I have been missing my weight lifting workouts this week but Madison has been snotty so I don't want to drag her to the gym twice a day.  She needs some time to get better.  Well, that's it for me.  I made some chili for dinner and my husband whined until I put beans in it so I guess I am not going full paleo for dinner.  Have a great weekend!

Update pics

So my husband calls me a narcissist.  I call it motivation.  If I am feeling down and wanting to just quit the whole weight loss thing and binge eat.  I take a few pictures and compare them to my day 1 photos and tell myself that its worth it.  I am worth it.  Call it what you will but I will continue to take pics to view my progress.  So here are my new pics after a day of feeling like giving up.  I am feeling better.  I am starting to see some definition in my arms and tummy.  I still need to get a tan, lol.

The first set is my Day 1 and Month 10 and the second set is my Week 1 and Month 10.

Anxiety vs bread

Ok, so I know why cavemen ran around like crazy people grunting and hollering gibberish.  It's because they were missing bread in their diets. 

I have been so cranky since starting this diet.  Almost to the point that I don't like my own attitude.  Even though this diet is working for me physically, I really don't think it is helping me mentally.  I have been so cranky towards my kids, family, and peers.  I used to call my sis and mom 10 times a day and I didn't even speak to my sister at all today.  It has really got me in a funk.  I am considering going off of it for a couple of days to see if I see any improvements with my mood.  Maybe it's just all in my head. 

Wanted to share

I just wanted to share what a friend from a health group posted that really struck me. 

"We just simply have to look at what we have and what is being produced in our lives and then make positive changes. Is it going to be easy? No, but think of this. We were trained from a child to eat most of what we eat. We have developed an appetite and a love for the things we eat as adults. Most of this began in the early years of life. It was all passed on to us from our parents or caregivers. We can't really blame them but we can take control of the outcome we want in our lives now and in the lives of those who come after us. One way to do this is through education.

In spite of all the knowledge thrown our way, we tend to be trapped in what I call the battle of "Taste vs Results." We tend to go for the taste and care very little about the results it will produce in our bodies. We know some foods are bad for us but they taste so good. We are trapped in the taste. We can break out of it. We can "wean" ourselves off of the bad stuff and on to the good stuff. Over time our taste buds will "convert" to what you want to become a part of your diet. Continuous education will help you to maintain your commitment to your new changes. This will take patience and diligence. It can be done. We are stronger than we recognize."  


I just love this and it really struck me.